homecoming

some things need to be experienced before a full hearing can be done. one does not get charged before one commits the crime.

those metaphors actually make no sense, but me trying to sound sophisticated.

solitude makes you realise who you love, and who you rely on. appreciation is one thing, and freedoms another. to lose freedom is to obtain love but to lose love is to obtain freedom. a totally free person has no affection from anyone and needs to separate his or herself from material wants and needs. i dont want these material wants, but i appreciate friendship and kinship, for without them i cannot feel the world.

sometimes, an emotional impetus and i want to fall down into the deep darkness of loneliness, without those who taught me enough back home, those i worry for back home. love is love, never felt so intensely before. i miss so many people, not that i dont look forward to my new experiences now. its times like these when you really want to tell them how much you care but you just cant.

an emotional shotgun through me.

nevertheless, new love is formed here.

and im going home.